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[26 Oct 2005|08:54pm]
[ mood | stressed ]


i hate this. not having a computer for months thing.
i seriously can't stand it. i miss all of my friends from different states that i never get to talk to.
i miss you.
so i no longer am employed.
i no longer have any money.
i wanna move out of this place. i hate it here. i wanna just move to a big city and start over.

my .mom. had a heart attack. and this really sucks.

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[19 May 2005|09:23pm]
I have mono </3
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[17 May 2005|06:56am]
Well, It's been 29 weeks. Since i've been...well..on a computer. So I figured I could update this.. I Went to see Green Day on Friday. It was amazing <3 prom ... was fun too. I'll try to get back on here soon. <3 ciao ;)
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[26 Oct 2004|08:42pm]
There's a perfect girl for you
somewhere in this world
I was hoping it was me
but I guess I was astray
I thought I could perfect myself
so you could feel mutual
but I realized I have to be me
and stop feigning
So I'm drawing the line
This is the end
Maybe you'll come around
and make me smile again

This is what you see
The outside of me
Blue eyes, blonde hair
And somewhere around five foot three

This is what you don't see
Not fully, anyway
The inside of me
I often hide away
In fear of rejection
In fear of regret
Someday you'll see it, I promise
Just not yet

It's been a while yet again since my last update. Like I might have said before, I do not have the computer very often to get on.. I really miss a few people on here.. Some of the people I'd get on JUST to talk to each day a while back. I really do miss you. I think you might know what I am talking about. Just maybe. I hope. Anyway, Halloween is coming up here very fast. Truthfully, I'm not looking forward to it. I had some plans made but of course everytime you try to make plans ahead of time something always gets in the way of them. Ronny, Chris and I were supposed to be going to Ryans Halloween Party on Saturday night. Things with Kole.. Well they were okay however we decided we were better off friends.. For the first time in a while a guy hasn't completely tore me into pieces. Thank you Kole. He's such a sweetie. and truthfully him and Vanessa are an adorable couple.. they have been dating for a few days now. but I can really see their relationship going somewhere. I just really hope I can find someone that will love me. Not someone who wants to see if they can get me in bed.. No.. You will not succeed. Please just stop wasting your time.. Thank you.. Well I think this might be a long enough entry. Sorry for sounding kind of Emo in this entry its just really how I feel. I also feel like my friends aren't including me in anything they do anymore. Kelly and Erin, I never hang out with them anymore.. Asheley we hang out sometimes but she seems to get mad at me ALL the time. and thats really gonna drive me crazy. It seems like we can't even go through one week without something happening that she doesn't like. What kind of friendship is that. However there is a few positive things, Me Casey, Hannah and Julia are hanging out a little more now. We are all going to see Good Charlotte and Sum 41 on November 9th in Chicago. This friday October 29th Asheley, Cody, and I are going to see Yellowcard and The Starting Line up in chicago too. I can't wait for that .. Well like I said before this is a long enough entry I'll try to be back sometime later t his week or next week to fill ya in about how my week went. See ya!

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[06 Oct 2004|07:50pm]
[ mood | sleepy ]

Whoa. What all has happened since the last time i've updated. well lets see. I'm still not making very much money at my job. I got a new car.. My computer has crashed 1837287 times. I only have 2 comments. tons and tons of DRAMA. of course. thats what happens I guess

*first. My honda Civic. It's so awesome. I'm in love with it. Kole sold it to me for 4,500. Sounds good eh. It's a really nice car. Btw. Kole. is the sweetest man I have ever met in person. He's the cutest guy around here and i'm so glad hes mine. <3

*second. Eric//lets see what to say about eric. i have a single word for him. STALKER. Well I guess the restraining order works well because it's been about two weeks since He's chased me last. That I know of. He might have gotten a new car just to follow me around in.. And yeah that would be really really creepy. I don't know if I'd be able to handle that.. No Probably not.

*third. Justine//I thought she was the sweetest girl ever... I was completely wrong. She became my best friend. Then I found out everything she was saying to me.. was all a bunch of lies. talk about a pathological liar. That shit pisses me the fuck off. She lied about everything seriously. She lied about my Lovely Kole.. trying to get us apart. She lied about all the guys she had sex with. She said shes been with one guy. turns out i've talked to 7 other ones shes also been with. Crazy huh. I always wondered why everyone hated her. and why she moves every year. to a different town or city further away. I hope she moves. Sooner or later the entire states gonna know who she is and what she lies about. they will all know her inside and out. Only bad thing about her.. shes a really good liar. She always has a lot of people fooled. Stephanie, Katy, Brittany and I. went over to her house to confront her about her lying and she called the cops on us. She told the cops we broke down her door and threatened to kick her ass.. when the entire time we were there we stood in her drive way. Definately didn't go anywhere near the door. I'm so sick of her. Then she asked me to return her shoes and bikini so I did. Then she called the cops again and told them i didnt return her pants. Thanks for asking for them sweetie. The cops told her there are better uses for 911..then teen drama. Sorry justine.. She's 17 of course thats probably the reason shes going through all this. But I don't remember calling the cops about every single thing when I was 17. when she finally returned me and stephs stuff.. she threw it at us.. and put like spaghetti sauce on alot of it. and then called US immature. I'm like dear your immature. Then.. The major thing thats been bugging the hell out of me lately about her.. She was non-stop talking shit about Ashley. and now her and Ashley are like best friends now that justine has NO ONE. Thanks. Sooner or later Ashley and/or Jenny will figure her all out. Everyone did.. Even Andrea. and shes really slow.. well anyhoo thats enough about that little story


This weekend Kole, Ronny, Chris, Scott and I are going to haunted mazes and Houses and stuff. Should be fun. Then Me and Kole are going to a hockey game. Kole however has never been to a hockey game so this should be interesting.

Thats it for now

I'll try to update again later




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[19 Jul 2004|04:35pm]
[ mood | happy ]

Well hmm.. Hello everyone out there in lj-land. hows it been going.. Not too much new here. I've been working alot *subway* but still not making too much money.. :-\ it sucks .. Right-o so yeah now that i've graduated.. things have been kinda slow around here. I'm looking at colleges. might go to Northern Illinois University. Augustana.. or some college up in minnesota. I'm also really wanting to travel.. i wanna go to Paris.. and Australia.. and definately canada. I have a few friends up there right now and i just really think it would be a ton of fun to go up there. :) my internet has been down for a while.. and now my phones disconnected for some strange reason. the people at the phone company cant seem to figure out why. I've been shopping sooo much lately. i mean this week on like wednesday i think i might be going shopping in Chicago. wee.. Funn well yeah thats about it for this entry im thinkin. glad to finally get my internet back. . comment bitches.

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[20 Jun 2004|04:30pm]
well hm.. Nothing interesting has happened lately. So i havent been writing about it at all. so i got this thing off andys journal.. and i realized there is someone i think about constantly. so heres my sentance..


If there is one person you can't stop thinking about, post this same exact sentence in your journal.


Well I guess i DID have my graduation party. sure. thats it for now

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[13 Jun 2004|02:51pm]
[ mood | content ]

Graduation was the other day. Its over. No more highschool How awesome is that. But now i have to worry about getting a job and going off to college. anyone have any awesome colleges in mind?? I got a new cute bikini its pink and white. its adorable My live journal needs some work now im tired of this layout, if anyone is willing to fix it up for me and make it look awesome with a background and graphic design or something i am totally up for it just add me on AIM brittanyzluv I'll try to get on more often sometime soon will someone also help me put pictures up on here. i have some awesome pics of random things i would love to put up here. I met this awesome guy his names Alex. hes a really random person and i love it. Hes funny. Tomorrow i will be up in cherry seeing eric again. this time will be much better because we are all going over to his friends house brian. Brian is 19 and he has his own house. last time we ended up sitting in davids room watching moves i've already saw a million and 1 times how fun is that. I need to update this thing more often.. then i wont have situations like this where I totally forget what has happened lately. this really sucks. aw alex just left. oh well. Blake is an awesome person he really can't wait for me to come to his house this summer it will be alot of fun hanging out with his friends, as long as kirstin isnt there. i really dont like her i think she is nasty. her face is always so greasy. gross. well anyways I really think thats about it for this entry i will be putting some poems up sometime later today or this week. i will also have an update about tomorrow with eric. <3 [xBRITTANYx] I miss you Andy.

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[09 Jun 2004|11:59pm]
[ mood | flirty ]

dear miss.brittany,
You are really _____. You should _____. We need to go _____. After that we can _____.
Remember that time we _____? That was real _____.
Maybe someday we can _____. You are my _____. I _____ you!
Signed your _____,
P.S. _____.

*fill in the blanks.. and leave a comment*

It was just a feeling
One I wasn't going to act on
But my emotions got the best of me
So I tried to explain it to you
Maybe it was nothing
And I took it too far
But I was hoping we could be more

I love to be around you
My smiles never fade
You give me this sense of reason
To make it through my day

You got to know me for me
And I'm really glad you did
Now if only you could feel the same
I really wish you would

- -
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[31 May 2004|11:46pm]
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[30 May 2004|11:53am]
[ mood | bored ]

Boys are...hmm...what's the word? :\

Regardless, I want one. A nice one. An athletic one.
A cute one. A caring one. A romantic one. A funny one.
Just one to call mine :) Seems that's too much to ask, tho.

Again I say, hmm...

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[30 May 2004|11:44am]

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[26 May 2004|07:29am]
[ mood | busy ]

Hm, lets see. this week is kinda packed. I have Graduation, I'm going to spend the day with Eric, Water park on monday, Brandons graduation party on Sunday. My cousin is flying in from Colorado today. And Tomorrow and friday. I just have a bunch of stuff to be planning for. My dress, hair, everything. My graduation party. Becca and Jasons wedding. Brandons party. and Six Flags for asheleys birthday. Kellys birthday is comming up too. Then on Wednesday, theres a concert in muscatine iowa. thats 2 hours away. but im renting a car to drive up there. Asheleys mom is renting that for us today. Thank you haley for not being here today.

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[16 May 2004|12:50am]
[ mood | excited ]

Incubus Concert~ in JULY! I Can't wait for that either! It's going to be alot of fun! :)

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[16 May 2004|12:36am]
[ mood | scared ]

i had a really bad dream last night.
ya know, the kind where once you wake up,
you arent quiet sure what was real and what was just in your head.
i wish i would have woken up next to you.
that would have made everything alright.

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[11 May 2004|12:04pm]
[ mood | sad ]

I was reading my past entries. That one on February 4th. That one sucks. I read it today and I was suddenly so pissed off that i was ever friends with that backstabber.

I hope something terrible happens to you sometimes so you realize your problems arent the worst that could happen. Your dad yells at you for something. you think your life sucks just because of that. the little arguement. Sorry to bust ur fucking bubble but other peope have ahot worse problems than that. thanks


I'm really sorry about that girl. That is really weird. Im really sorry. that must be extremely weird for you. I read it and I got chills. I read it over and over and over again. my eyes were watering more and more each time. I hope your doing okay babe.

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[09 May 2004|08:10pm]
[ mood | sore ]

I got sunburnt today.
It hurts so bad.
My shoulders
and back
are extremely red.

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[07 May 2004|08:41pm]
[ mood | sad ]

i slept with my prettybaby last night because it stormed,
and i wasnt sure if he would be okay.
i was more scared than he was.
so we curled up under the blankets and waited for it to end.
i woke up this morning, and le tigre was dead.
i think it's not going to be a good day.

oh, and i'm looking for a male model.
so if any of you rock.rivercity boys are interested,
get at me.

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[29 Apr 2004|07:36pm]
[ mood | lazy ]

i cried today because sometimes life just isnt fair.
she was so young.
it really puts things into prespective.
i cried today because i've been sitting back watching my life pass me by.
i cried today, because something is missing.
and then i found it.

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[27 Apr 2004|08:58pm]
[ mood | blah ]

i'm feeling really disconnected from some of the people i love the most.

do you remember january third?
                                             you're drifting far away,
and    it's          tearing    me   apart.

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